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Lexy came out of school yesterday, looked at me and said "my friend died"...I could not control the tears. Throughout the afternoon and evening she would talk about Gabe. She told me that he went to heaven like her fish swimmy but that his body was still here and they would have a thing to say goodbye to him one last time (visitation) and then the funeral where he would be "in something like a coffin but not as scary" and be put in the ground. She said that the councelor at school read them a book about angels and that Gabe was her special angel friend. She drew 15 Gabe angels on her homework last night. She said she felt bad for Gabe's Mommy & Daddy because they are probably still crying. She talked about how Gabe's medicine couldn't stop the cancer. She was really concerned about the fact that Gabe wasn't able to wear his glasses because he had some cancer under his eye. She only teared up once while talking about him...

When swimmy passed away I told Lexy that he could still hear her and that she could talk to him anytime she missed him. This morning while she was getting dressed I heard her talking, "I miss you Gabe", "I'm wearing green today because that's your favorite color", "I love you Gabe", were some of the things I heard.

This is hard :(