Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I've been praying a lot lately for peace and guidance as the nervousness and doubts begin to take over my normally crazy but level headed mind :) I know this is what we're supposed to be doing right now and I know that our next family member(s) will be a perfect fit for us so I just have to trust that everything will work out just the way it's meant to be!
After a couple of months of telling us that she didn't want anymore kids in our house, Lexy told me out of the blue at the doctor's office yesterday..."I want a brown baby sister...and I want another brown sister that is between the ages of 4 and 2" Yes her words, Hmmm maybe she knows something the rest of us don't yet :)
Monday, March 29, 2010
I'm getting SO excited and, I'll be truthful, nervous...we could be adding to our family VERY soon! Every time I start to freak out about everything I just remember that God is in charge and he has a perfect plan.
oh the butterflies...
Friday, March 26, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
Today Mike and I took the girls to an indoor play place called Power Play. They have a great buffet and lots of games and attractions for the girls to have fun on/with. Lexy especially loved the swing ride and getting prizes from the tickets won but wasn't too sure about that spinning apple ride :) Brooke liked winning all the tickets and was a very good big sister playing with Lexy and giving her piggy back rides!
On our way home from bowling on Friday night we stopped off at the store to stock up on "keep us warm" foods b/c the weather man was calling for snow all weekend. Sure enough it snowed all day on Saturday and we got several inches of the white stuff. So we snuggled in and stayed in our pj's, snacked, took naps, had chili and cake and watched movies. By Sunday it was better out so we decided we better prepare to get back to "real life" so we cleaned and grocery shopped :(
This morning Lexy was up by about 5:30am, too excited to be heading back to school...Brooke on the other hand was not all that excited to be getting up when it was still dark :)
Friday, March 12, 2010
Brooke has had to stay after school until 5pm each night to teach the cheer & dance to the 6th & 7th graders that are trying out for cheerleading tonight! She was so nervous for them this morning!
Two soccer practices for Lexy. I haven't gotten even one picture yet because I somehow got nominated to be the assistant coach...I know NOTHING about soccer!!! Lexy coach is so sweet, she brought cupcakes to practice last night to celebrate Lexy's b-day.
A trip up to the movies with school for Brooke.
A school dance for Brooke.
I gathered pictures and made the picture book that our adoption worker wants from us. I'm putting it in the mail to her today!
I made a few hair accessories for the girls, I'll post pictures later.
Lexy's picture day yesterday. I was asked to help with this so I spent the day at Lexy's school corralling preschool and kindergarten kids, cleaning faces, combing hair, making sure they held on to their little "picture papers" and protecting the picture set from bouncing, jumping, kicking, goofing around kids :-) Lexy loved that I was there all day and was excited that I got to eat lunch with her.
Today is Brooke's picture day...she wouldn't let me help at her school :-(
Tonight Brooke has a sleepover b-day party to go to and tomorrow Lexy has a skating b-day party to go to.
WHEW I'm wore out!!!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
THE STARFISH POEM
Once upon a time there was a wise man
who used to go to the ocean
to do his writing.
He had a habit of walking
on the beach before he began his work.
One day he was walking along the shore.
As he looked down the beach,
he saw a human figure moving like a dancer.
He smiled to himself to think
of someone who would dance to the day.
So he began to walk faster to catch up.
As he got closer, he saw that it was a young man
and the young man wasn't dancing,
but instead he was reaching
down to the shore, picking up something
and very gently throwing it
into the ocean.
As he got closer he called out,
"Good morning! What are you doing?"
The young man paused, looked up and replied,
"Throwing starfish in the ocean."
"I guess I should have asked,
why are you throwing starfish in the ocean?"
"The sun is up and the tide is going out.
And if I don't throw them in they'll die."
"But, young man, don't you realize that
there are miles and miles of beach
and starfish all along it.
You can't possibly make a difference!"
The young man listened politely.
Then bent down, picked up another starfish
and threw it into the sea,
past the breaking waves and said-
"It made a difference for that one."
We want to be the ones to make a difference to another child or children. There are so many children in this world in need of a warm bed, a loving home and a compassionate family...why would we NOT choose adoption?
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
On your sixth birthday I want to tell you just how much I love you!
your squeezin' huggin' lovin's
your beauty inside and out
your positive attitude
your love for all animals
your way of saying "Mommy I need you"
your ability to make friends easily
your love of back rubs when you can't sleep
and your love of only "mommy's spaghetti" (which I'll be making for you tonight!)
I love you all the way to the pluto and back and another half and not just the short cut the long way!!!! I'm SO lucky to have you as my daughter!
On Sunday it was a beautiful day so after we finished up cleaning around the house, I took Lexy outside to ride on her new scooter and play soccer and Mike took Brooke for her very first driving lesson...I can't believe she's old enough for that!!!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
It's taken me a long time to come to terms with the emotions and events that surrounded the first few years of Lexy's life. With Lexy's 6th birthday coming up next week, I'd like to take the opportunity to write a therapeutic letter to her birth mom...
Dear Birth Mom,
Thank you for the MOST precious gift that I have ever received from another person. Without you I wouldn't have my smart, beautiful and funny daughter...you will always hold a special place in my heart because of that.
I have been blessed with cuddling, kissing, healing hurts, having that special bond and watching Lexy grow from a tiny four month old to a wonderful almost six year old. I truly appreciate that you chose to give birth and raise Lexy for those first four months until she came to us. I'm thankful for the knowledge that you loved Lexy as best you could at the time.
Your life circumstances and choices make it impossible for you to parent a child and I'm glad that you came to that realization when you chose not to appeal the court's decision to terminate your rights and allow us to adopt Lexy. I only wish you could have seen the pain you were causing sooner.
As I told you at our good bye visit, Lexy will know about you in an age appropriate manner. We will never hide the fact that she was adopted or that you exist. She will know the truth and will be able to form her own opinions. We will be here to help her understand and answer any questions that she may have.